Archive for October, 2003
Natural Rights Philosophy
//Second Essay for English
The idea of natural rights philosophy, though thousands of years old in thought, is just as applicable today. Mankind is in constant need of governance and order, the origin of which is based within our governments and the concept of natural law and tolerance. The power those governing bodies attain comes from both the governed and from a divine source, and both of those sources are required for fair governance.
Love’s a Bitch
studio work from 2003
*This is something I’m writing for a good friend of mine.*
I wish that we could go through life and never experience pain. I don’t mean the petty pain of a cut or scrape, rather the pain of a heart torn apart. I’ve been there, I know how it feels, I know it all to well. When I read what you write my heart sinks for you and what you’re going though. Of someone who cares to much for you (or is it not enough) to see what they are doing to you.
How they run from person to person trying to find the fulfillment you gave them for so long. The inability we have to comprehend why it didn’t work out between you two. All you are sure of is the pain it gives you inside, the torn emotions and racing mind that keep you up until all hours of the waning night. Wearing down your mind and then your body until you feel completely rejected and seemingly worthless.
What you aren’t seeing is what you still have. Your heart is still there to give, although slightly abused, there is someone out there who will care for it until it’s better then new. You have your care to give, to shower over someone out there who is willing to be with you. Someone who at the end of the day will make it all worth while, not only today, but every other day of your life. Take your time to grieve but know that it will come to you, the love you’re so willing to give. This chapter you just closed in the book you’re writing. The book is waiting for you to grab the pen again. Read the rest of this entry »
My Hard Time
Well it seems like Ive just dug myself in a hard place here. It stems from me being to observant and actually caring about people, contrary to some peoples ideas of me. Here is where my trouble currently lies. I still have very mixed feeling about laura b. I mean how could I not, she is an amazing girl but the more I reflect back I realize that it wouldnt have worked out in the long run, which has helped me get over our relationship. The problem lies with what has happened since then.
I love helping people, I spent a large portion of last week helping sarah out and when I had been there for her and sorted through things with her I wasnt really interested in anything more then helping her out. Since then that has changed though, Im starting to get more interested in her and weve talked and she is feeling the same way about me. Now Im in a hard place because how can I pursue this relationship without hurting laura. I know I should talk to her about it but Im not even sure if she would believe me.
Basically right now Im in a hard spot because of what was written earlier. I know it will work out, I just hope that everyone can understand who has to. Im going to go to bed now.
Take Care and God bless,
~paul
Macaroni
I have a whole box of easy mac in my closet. I always seem to forget that it’s there, which makes sense because I don’t really like it. Isn’t it funny how stuff like that happens.
I still haven’t registered and the stupid website still isn’t loading. Yay for technology!!
well I’m off to try it again. wish me luck!
4am Conclusion
So to fill in a little bit more from before with my very abbreviated post. Ive finally become fairly comfortable with my surroundings and college life in general so Im really starting to open up to people more. Im figuring out more names and meeting more people. I love it.
It's 4am
my mind is a mess but yet I feel so good inside. I’ll post more later about why i feel good inside. As for now I must try to find my room mate who doesn’t know how to have his keys with him. I am in the room alone and I kind of wanted to talk to him.
Take Care and God bless,
~paul
Where to start…
Im not really sure what to talk about. My life is quite meh at the moment. Everyday that goes by I make the best of, because Ive taught myself to. The latter of this previous week sucked.
Muses of the Manager
//the first essay i wrote for english
Standing under a gentle drizzle with the air not yet brisk upon exposed skin Mike walks out onto the pavement with an upward glance to the street lamp, starting to bring conclusion to his evening. With hidden twilight on the brink of the passing dusk, he recedes back on his way, back to errands and daily life. Watching him disappear brings closure to discussion over coffee. This opens the future realization that this gentle rain will continue on my walk home. Granting me time to reflect over the muses of his mind, and insights into his life. Tonight I was given a glimpse into thirty-six years of thought from this shaggy brown haired, browned eyed man with a love for the arts. Read the rest of this entry »
The Right?
This has been an interesting week for me. Im not really sure why it happened this week, or why its happening at all. My mind must just be on overdrive or something similar. (sorry Ill try not to make it too long, its 3am and my mind is running somewhat).
Im talking about something that Ive been struggling with for the past few weeks personally. Ive been blessed beyond anything I could have fathomed when I came here to college and thats hard for me to take. No, Im not saying that I dont think I shouldnt have a good thing happen every now and then. Just what did I do to deserve all this? Im on one of the best floor sets on campus, Ive made amazing friends who would do anything for me and are always there for me, have an amazing class load and really enjoy all my classes (minus computer programming), ned is a better friend then ever, and then there is laura who I cant say enough about. Maybe its just because Im to a new location, new people, finally on my own?, but I havent had a day when Ive not wanted to get up. Even this morning when I was up until 4:45 working on fundamentals of Design to wake up four hours later to take an art survey in class writing exam.
Ok so maybe this isnt making a ton of sense. Im just having a hard time grasping why so much good stuff is happening to me. I dont see any reason for it to happen. Ive talked to some people about this and theyve all told me that I either deserve it to happen or that I should just enjoy it. Why though, why is everything going so well? I know this is a really stupid thing to be complaining about but I cant seem to understand. Ive prayed that God would at least show me why hes been so generous towards me but Ive yet to see it. So I just keep waiting for something bad to happen so that Im ready when it does. Earlier tonight (or is it this morning?) I was sure something was up with Laura and me but when I asked her she told me everything was going well, for some reason I didnt believe her. Maybe because it wasnt what I wanted to hear, later I asked her again and she told me she answered me and then it hit me, Im still waiting for something to happen. Its to the point where it is wearing me out to an extent. I want so bad to just let go and live this blessed life Gods graced me with. So tomorrow when I wake up for drawing I will try that.
Take Care everyone and God bless,
~paul
sorry for the lack of posts this week, been busy
Crisis for Miss Tibit
The Miss Tibet beauty contest is in deep trouble.
It’s only one year old and only one contestant turned up for this week’s contest. She is 20-year-old Tsering Kyi.
“We declared her Miss Tibet,” said competition organiser Lobsang Wangyal.
It is not clear if he had any alternative plan of action.
Why so little interest?
“There was immense social pressure on the girls not to participate by traditional sections of the Tibetan society,” Mr Wangyal told the BBC.
The contest is staged in the northern Indian city of Dharamsala, the seat of the Tibetan government in exile. Last year’s inaugural pageant did fare better – 30 Tibetan women registered. However, on the day, only four turned up.
Dwindling response
This year, the organisers received only 10 applications. As Tsering Kyi gets used to her new title of Miss Tibet 2003, Mr Wangyal described her as “a brave girl”.
She is a student in a nearby monastery in the scenic Kangra valley. Ms Kyoi was born and raised in north-eastern Tibet. She escaped to India after finishing high school at the age of 16. Ms Kyoi has written a book of poetry in Tibetan and speaks fluent Chinese, according to the Miss Tibet website. She has won several prizes in high school level essay competitions.
“She defied the community’s intense silent protest to participate,” Mr Wangyal said.
The formal ceremony crowning Ms Kyi will be held on 9 October. She will be presented a prize of 100,000 rupees ($2,000).
The organisers made frantic last minute efforts to persuade more girls to participate but failed. The organisers and a section of the younger Tibetan community say that the Miss Tibet show is another way of espousing the Tibetan cause.
But the BBC’s Baldev Chauhan says it has met fierce opposition from traditional Buddhists in the area. They argue that holding beauty contests is against the very essence of Tibetan culture.
Many of them were particularly outraged by a round in which contestants parade in swimsuits. The critics of the contest include the Prime Minister-in-exile, Samdhong Rinpoche. Tibet’s spiritual leader, the Dalai Lama, has remained silent on this issue.
//From the BBC online