Maybe it’s the fact that I’ve spent so much time alone lately and contemplated so much about my life but the more I look into my self the more unsure I am of who this Paul Prins character is. Let me explain.
I love where I’m at in life, I won’t deny that. Being able to see the fruits of my labors flourish in front of me more then I ever dreamt they would. It’s an experience I hope everyone has once in his or her lifetime. That’s not the aspect I wish was different though. I just feel distant from nearly everyone I meet, part of me believes it to be self-imposed but the more reflection I do the more it seems to be related to my work and the effects it’s had on me as a person.
Well I called highline back today, let them know that I’m planning on doing a summer project and won’t be able to go out there for an internship. I will admit I was slightly nervous doing so, since this is a great opportunity for me. After talking for a minute Dave told me that if I was interested they could get me doing contract work for them next winter. That would be really nice, get some money over winter break as well as some really great job experience in the field I will probably end up in.
For those of you who may be wondering why, then, am I going to school for art. I didn’t want to sit through a four year program where I would learn next to nothing that I haven’t already learned and experienced first hand. Art is a passion of mine and one that, with practice, I could get quite good at and will help to round my abilities.
I talked to Christina today only to find out she’s already back at Kansas and we didn’t get a chance to catch up with each other over break. It was really nice taking her out for breakfast before we left for college, she is one of the few people who just gets me. When I talk to her it seems like she knows whats going on in my head, when most of the time I feel like people don’t have a clue. Sometimes I feel like I’ve done to much and even feelings of guilt come up with that as well. Oh well, can’t do anything about the past. Can only live for the future.
Take Care and God bless you,
~paul
I know that right now I’m stepping on toes. I’m making them uncomfortable in this old industry and there really isn’t anything they can do about it. For the past several years I learned from their lead and from their teachings. Despite how it may sound, I truly am grateful for all the lessons each of them taught me. Except that I’ve been their pawn and lessons have been contemplated. No longer will I stand by, things will happen my way.
The word empowered hadn’t made much sense to me before tonight. I don’t know why it happened tonight, roughly a month prior to the event, but it did. It is very obvious to me that nothing of the past four years would have happened had it not been for God’s grace helping me. I no longer need to listen to the teachings of those who I feel unsure of. He has blessed me with a very strong instinct in this area and it’s shone through for the past several years. I know this year we will turn heads. Never have things come together this well.
When I stop to thing about this I swell up within. For this is the year that we might be able to pull off my dream event. There are very few things left that would be possible to add on to the event and for the first time, I see exactly how to do it. Soon this season of Faith will be drawing to a close and everyone will know. Till then right now all I know is that I’m stepping on toes.
Take Care and God bless,
~paul
ps. this was entry 96, I’ve got something already written for 100…
So it’s been a few days now but 2004 is still just getting started. This was the best New Years I have ever been to. It was the campus crusade Christmas conference for the upper Midwest region, also known as TCX (Twine Cities Experience). Just imaging a couple thousand college kids in a room rocking in the new year to some classic 70s/80s disco music. Not to mention that the conference was very well done and the speakers and seminars I was able to go to earlier on new years eve were very good. Went to a very good seminar during men’s time on Marriage and maintaining that relationship, what to look for in that life long friendship with her, and just general good advice.
My older brother has also gone back out to Seattle now for the remainder of this year, until thanksgiving. It was weird hanging out with him last night knowing that he’ll be gone for so long, and we’ve just started to become closer. We’ll keep in touch though. I’ll also be kept pretty busy so the next ten months will go by very quickly.
For all you who are wondering, the event is going to happen in Duluth. I’m in the process of finishing up the website and print work at the moment. All that needs to go in Monday so that we have time to get it printed and back to me before the event. I hope we can get some stuff out at the X games and the US Freeskiing Open. We won’t get many if any competitors from those events coming over but it will help build the reputation for our event to expand upon in the future.
Today I hung out with Matt Johnson for a couple hours, was a good time like always. Grabbed some coffee up at the mall and walked around, got a dvd {The Good Girl, what can I say, I’m a sucker for indi films}, bumped into Katie Moss and little Alexey, and checked out the advertising mags at the banes and noble. Was a good time, now I’m off to finish up all of the print work for the event. BLAH, I’m so close to being done with the event, it’s kind of crazy. This is when I do my best work though, in the crunch, while listening to the Kill Bill Vol. 1 sound track.
Take Care, God Bless you and your new year!!!
~paul