Can’t Help but Smile
Tuesday, March 9th, 2004I know that most of what I write in here is me venting my angst of the world, eh can?t win them all. Here is something a little more up beat I guess.
It seems like it?s been so long since I?ve met someone who just the sound of their voice brings a smile to my face. That after only a few short moments on the phone I am overcome with this longing to just be overjoyed. That when it something seems to be falling apart I just remember the time when we?re going to hang out and it seems to take the edge off any pain. I love this sensation and the emotion that it entails. The thought and understanding that one day this is all I will feel and experience is enough to keep me going and loving every moment of whatever is sent my way.
I’m super excited for coffee tonight… I will make more sense of this later.
Looking through an old journal of mine I found the following entry?
?I?ve never understood being alone
not having anywhere to turn
words can?t describe this feeling
this inner rage and bitter angst?
How I love being past that, being able to see past that, because at times that?s all you can do.
I used to have a reason for this post? but that has disappeared into my ramblings, sorry about that.
Take care and God bless,
~paul