PaulPrins.net

It’s been a couple days and I’ve got the website coming along quite well. I’m excited to see how it all falls into place and to see if there will be any growth out of it. I’m using a CMS (content managment system) this time around instead of writting my own. I just have to finish the identity of the site and then from there design some clothing and put it online for others to print. I’m pretty stoked about it and how it’s coming along.

Here is the new typeface, working on a logo and sheild for later.

We’re going for kind of a medieval/ren. period and we’ll see how it goes over. I might fidget with that a bit more but it’s mostly how it’s going to look. Any critique is more then welcome, please!

So I’m working on Midwestskier a little bit again and I was looking at the space usage and couldn’t figure it out. It said I was using 670 megs of my gig. I have taken most of the old site down and am playing with some cms stuff and the numebr didn’t shift… weird is what I thought first. Then I decided to check the dump email account… yea, only 69,315 messages in the inbox (or about 3470 pages to list the email)… thats all spam from the last year that didn’t get read. hmmm, now to see if I can turn mailbox dumping off and empty it out. haha.

Well I called highline back today, let them know that I’m planning on doing a summer project and won’t be able to go out there for an internship. I will admit I was slightly nervous doing so, since this is a great opportunity for me. After talking for a minute Dave told me that if I was interested they could get me doing contract work for them next winter. That would be really nice, get some money over winter break as well as some really great job experience in the field I will probably end up in.

For those of you who may be wondering why, then, am I going to school for art. I didn’t want to sit through a four year program where I would learn next to nothing that I haven’t already learned and experienced first hand. Art is a passion of mine and one that, with practice, I could get quite good at and will help to round my abilities.

I talked to Christina today only to find out she’s already back at Kansas and we didn’t get a chance to catch up with each other over break. It was really nice taking her out for breakfast before we left for college, she is one of the few people who just gets me. When I talk to her it seems like she knows whats going on in my head, when most of the time I feel like people don’t have a clue. Sometimes I feel like I’ve done to much and even feelings of guilt come up with that as well. Oh well, can’t do anything about the past. Can only live for the future.

Take Care and God bless you,
~paul

I know that right now I’m stepping on toes. I’m making them uncomfortable in this old industry and there really isn’t anything they can do about it. For the past several years I learned from their lead and from their teachings. Despite how it may sound, I truly am grateful for all the lessons each of them taught me. Except that I’ve been their pawn and lessons have been contemplated. No longer will I stand by, things will happen my way.

The word empowered hadn’t made much sense to me before tonight. I don’t know why it happened tonight, roughly a month prior to the event, but it did. It is very obvious to me that nothing of the past four years would have happened had it not been for God’s grace helping me. I no longer need to listen to the teachings of those who I feel unsure of. He has blessed me with a very strong instinct in this area and it’s shone through for the past several years. I know this year we will turn heads. Never have things come together this well.

When I stop to thing about this I swell up within. For this is the year that we might be able to pull off my dream event. There are very few things left that would be possible to add on to the event and for the first time, I see exactly how to do it. Soon this season of Faith will be drawing to a close and everyone will know. Till then right now all I know is that I’m stepping on toes.

Take Care and God bless,
~paul

ps. this was entry 96, I’ve got something already written for 100…

So it’s been a few days now but 2004 is still just getting started. This was the best New Years I have ever been to. It was the campus crusade Christmas conference for the upper Midwest region, also known as TCX (Twine Cities Experience). Just imaging a couple thousand college kids in a room rocking in the new year to some classic 70s/80s disco music. Not to mention that the conference was very well done and the speakers and seminars I was able to go to earlier on new years eve were very good. Went to a very good seminar during men’s time on Marriage and maintaining that relationship, what to look for in that life long friendship with her, and just general good advice.

My older brother has also gone back out to Seattle now for the remainder of this year, until thanksgiving. It was weird hanging out with him last night knowing that he’ll be gone for so long, and we’ve just started to become closer. We’ll keep in touch though. I’ll also be kept pretty busy so the next ten months will go by very quickly.

For all you who are wondering, the event is going to happen in Duluth. I’m in the process of finishing up the website and print work at the moment. All that needs to go in Monday so that we have time to get it printed and back to me before the event. I hope we can get some stuff out at the X games and the US Freeskiing Open. We won’t get many if any competitors from those events coming over but it will help build the reputation for our event to expand upon in the future.

Today I hung out with Matt Johnson for a couple hours, was a good time like always. Grabbed some coffee up at the mall and walked around, got a dvd {The Good Girl, what can I say, I’m a sucker for indi films}, bumped into Katie Moss and little Alexey, and checked out the advertising mags at the banes and noble. Was a good time, now I’m off to finish up all of the print work for the event. BLAH, I’m so close to being done with the event, it’s kind of crazy. This is when I do my best work though, in the crunch, while listening to the Kill Bill Vol. 1 sound track.

Take Care, God Bless you and your new year!!!
~paul

And welcome to crunch week. I really wish this could have taken place next year but with the event moved up two weeks because someone at red bull can’t check a hockey schedule properly, I am forced to be a bastard this week to my sponsors. The fortunate thing is that all budgets should be filed and approved by this point so it’s just a matter of me getting on them and getting the product/cash sent my way.

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Here is what has been going on in my mind for the last couple days. I don’t expect anyone to read this and/or understand it. This is just to help me write it out and maybe come to some sort of conclusion.

Have you ever felt as though you were at a point in your life where you truly stood at some sort of cross roads? I’ve been standing here for over a month trying to decide what to do, testing the waters in every direction I can sense, though it seems as if I am blind to my options. Which, even though this might come off as arrogant, hasn’t really ever happened to me before. I have strived to live my life where I knew the choices I had and could logic out the choices I needed to make and have made. There are very few things in my past you could ask me about that I couldn’t explain. Now I need to take things on faith, being able to separate what I want from what is my fate.

In the past few weeks there have been to many things to call it coincidence and it has me very worried. Worried because the direction I’m being lead to is not one which I have much experience, or good and positive experience. I will be the first one to admit that I’m scared, because in the past four years what have I failed at? Every major under taking which my heart was set upon has been blessed beyond compare and now I am feeling led to give it all up, but am I being misled. Could I be misled by my own selfish desires, or is it something greater then me all together?

It pains me to write this out, because of who might read this. Here it goes though… My event may not happen, it has a six-day timer set and running. That event is the only thing that I’ve been hanging onto with skiing, of which my passions are dying for. I spent last weekend in Utah and still felt next to nothing, because skiing has become work for me, and work that causes me stress. Coming from a guy who rarely has to deal with those feelings. Furthermore, what if I am meant to stop this event, should I disregard everything that I’m doing for the Midwest skiing scene? Now for the larger picture.

I’ve been taught invaluable skills over the past years by running CTP, but is this the time that I’m meant to stop and pull the plug? My vision in blurred and I can’t tell if it is His will or not. Either that or I can see what I am to do but am scared that it isn’t what I want, or that I won’t make it. Just what is there to be scared of, every time I have called upon God he has been there with more then I’ve needed from Him. I think back to several times where prayers have been answered. This just feels as though there is no one I can turn to who will understand me and what I’m going through.

Maybe it’s just that I make assumptions that people won’t understand my faith, last time I explained it to someone she told me she couldn’t help me. I didn’t need anyone’s help with my faith. I feel almost as though I’m under constant attack because I’ve reached the place I’m at. I’m just having a hard time knowing what to do with what I’ve been told. I know it feels so right but at the same time I feel like I was made for more… not to belittle it at all, but I feel almost as though it would be forfeiting something. Alas I’m selfish and in time will have to deal with it.

God bless,
~paul