Living Beneath the Waves

A hope abounds for those bound in fear, born from a love that chooses to dwell in the midst of fear and uncertainty. It is unknown to those who insist in the face of the mountain of life that they are capable and able to climb. It is unknown to those who suppress their knowledge of themselves. It is unknown to those who seek escape from the feeling that something is not right with the world, with their world.

There is a hope that exists for those who choose to rest in the chaos of their own soul. Discovering the peace that exists right beneath the waves, we find ourselves in the company of Jesus who likewise chose to be crushed and broken. To know him, and those like him who have willfully accepted the broken heart of God and find themselves with a heart breaking for more than before.

Our world tells us that a life without brokenness or pain is the goal. My experience with God tells me that the goal is to be true to every broken piece of glass that has pierced my being, allowing some to be tenderly removed while others stay painfully present. Those points of pain that remain become cherished intimate points where our heart knows God’s.

The world may never understand, and the beautiful thing is your soul and heart won’t care. What once felt like living beneath the waves is inexplicably transformed into resting tranquilly upon a mountainside. The secret is to dive in, and give yourself over to what God is doing in you.

Photo Credit: SergioTudela


Of Course they will judge You

Before we divulge or reveal something which pulses anxiety through our system we often prefixed by saying “Don’t judge me…” It’s interesting how quickly we devalue the other. Almost as if we assume they wouldn’t care to know us, so we do not even give them the opportunity to ask why we are quirky and believe something culturally unacceptable.

Instead we might say “Don’t hold it against me.” It implies that we expect the relationship to continue, to go deeper, and further. It acts almost as an invitation into my life to understand why I believe something you might have objection to. Often I think we really don’t want the discourse, and passively push others away because being well known is too hard – and far too risky.

This is exactly where intimate community and transformation begin.

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One of the hardest truths to accept is that a monster exists within me. It’s difficult because this monster hibernates most of my life. Nearly every step I take is done in my right mind during sane moments. There are moments when the monster feels as though it doesn’t even exist. As my heart is wrenched with compassion or overflowing with love it becomes incomprehensible this beast is there, slumbering.

Yet there – dormant and waiting – is darkness and violence with me, within all of us. Its my ancestral baggage hidden and pressed down into the deepest and most obtuse corners of my being. The further down it is pressed the more refined I see myself, and the more I believe I have overcome the monster within me. At any moment the tables could turn, and a situation I find myself thrust into, awakens this monster I believed never existed.

When I see this monster let loose in others upon the world I must remind myself to be careful about that which slumbers within me, and all of us. Taking a moment to know that there is good in the face of evil and that there is space to forgive those overtaken by that which slumbers. I must remember that if my monster ever awakens there are people who excel at coaxing monsters back into hibernation, and in seeking help there is no shame.

The only shame is to lose ones self to hate, and that shame all too often turns to tragedy.

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Any recommendations on how we should read the bible?

“A thousand things: Frequently and Throughly is the best answer. The bible was not written to be read in 10 verse chunks.” – N.T. Wright

Love how NT Wright articulates reading/thinking about scripture. It seems like we only know the bits of passages, and there is really power in reading whole books, and understanding the whole story of God in scripture.

The video is just over 7 minutes, and worth your time.