Its weird being back here at Stout and attempting to discover what it is the Lord brought me back here to accomplish. As of right now I am at a loss for what it is, and Im trying to figure it out. I know Im not to be in a position of leadership and it has, for the first time, struck me now freeing that is.
Ever since my early Midwest Skier days I have loved being involved in everything, to the point where I had to know everything that was going on (no nitty details, but you get the point) and now Im here. Recently retired from and sold Midwest Skier, back from STINT and now in a position where people might remember me a bit, might know the name I carry with me, but dont know what to expect of me and who I now am. Ive been a Christian for just over four years now, and the last year was away from the sight of everyone I knew here.
Here I stand slowly embracing the truth that my roll in ministry will be minor and all the while praying that Gods roll for me in the kingdom of God would be huge. I know not what it is He has for me other then that He has given me quite a bit of free time to proclaim the gospel.
Thinking more about this it makes sense. Ive known the administrative burden of leading a ministry and how difficult that is. Maybe it is that contrasted to being completely free of it that has my excitement and anticipation up so high for this year. I greatly appreciated the time I had leading the Evangelism team and all the meetings/decisions that went along with it, yet here I am now able to preach and proclaim without attachment.
To some this will be frightful and condemning, yet to others it will be the fragrance of life. It is to the latter which I live. Until the day I am struck down will my lips sing His praise and my hands will seek to do His will. I pray no-one reading this takes it as a bash against those in leadership positions, I loved my time there, this is only a different phase and season of life. Oh am I ever ready for it.
Continue to run tirelessly into His way,