Swirl of Emotion

The time has been going past so quickly yet it seems like it’s been so long since I have seen some people already. When I look back into my memory it feels like months even though it’s just been weeks. I’m mixed up in where things are headed in my life. Not where I am headed, I have a pretty firm grasp upon that and how I want to get there.

Rather this swirl is of two stages of my life hitting head on. I feel this sense of impending conflict between the person I am and the person that college will form me to be, the person who will come out of four years (maybe more) of learning and growth. What will become of the person I am now, the friends that I have now, I’m already starting to loose contact with some of them and I don’ feel regret or sorrow over that. More wishing them the best, and that since they have stopped keeping in touch that it means they are off making new friends and having a good time. I’d like to think so anyway.

I’ve also been thinking about what is next after college, I always seem to do that, try to map out the next stage and plan in my life. Lately I’ve been thinking about starting another company (or re-naming CTP to be more marketable) and running a promotion/design firm. It would let me use my skills I’ve acquired in event production/management along with the skills I will learn in college with design and would be a really interesting and unique blend of talents. I’ll have to test the market and see how well my freelance managing goes over. Running events you set up is one thing, but running one where you just show up and make it work is another thing. It would also allow me to work with a bunch of my close friends in something that would be right up our alley.

Today at Dunn bros I was talking to Brian Mathieu and I am more then likely going to write for the SASA website once it goes online. It will be a little bit of a challenge because I will be the lone conservative mind on there. Which will really be a good thing, allowing the people visiting the site to receive both perspectives on the different subjects and topics that will come up over the next year and maybe years to come.

That’s all for now, next time I post I will be at college!!!

Take care and God Bless,
~paul