Mixed Emotions

Monday June 23rd, 2003 at 2:37 PM

Sometimes it is weird how in one day we go through so many different and varying emotions. Yesterday was one of those days for me. After coming off of a week where seemingly everything went my way, I got more work, got a new girlfriend (who is absolutely amazing!!), as well as several other small things I know I would over look, I was faced with the realization that one of the people who had a major impact upon my life could be cut from the location which I saw her the most.

One of the pastors at our church (eden prairie presbyterian church) has now dissolved his relations with the church. I don’t really know how other denominations work but that means that him and his wife cannot come back to that church. They aren’t allowed inside of the doors or on the grounds, says the Book of Order (the book of government of the presbytery). My friend is the daughter of that pastor. For me I had always assumed I would see her at church on Sundays when we would be home from college and now that ideal was cut from me. Carissa is one of the nicest people I’ve ever met and to not know if she is going to ever come back to that church is hard (as the BoO only restricts the pastor and his/her spouse). Needless to say that put me in a not so appealing mood. I did, however, called her up today and we are going to try to do something tonight but that is all pending on what she has going on at home.

I did however talk about mixed emotions, which brings me to the later comment I have. Last evening we had bible study but it was more laid back, playing volleyball and then I had to beat Dave in our foot race. Once we got inside and settled in we started going around the group of us saying what we liked about each person and what we admired. It was so nice being able to openly say things about these friends of mine that I’ve been meaning to say for a while. I also really enjoyed hearing what other people who are close to me thought of me. See how different my impressions are from what other people thought of me. Luckily they were pretty similar. That really put me into a great mood and balanced out my Sunday. I also enjoyed the time I was able to spend at church since I’ve been lacking a bit lately on my own studies.

Take care and God bless~paul prins

p.s. 30 entries!!


Spring Break 1

I know I should be heading over to bed, which conveniently is right behind me, but instead I’m sitting here writing away. Today was the Monday of my killer spring break… Actually it turned out to be a lot of fun. Carissa and me went out and had some fun at krispykream or however you spell it and then she showed me what guitar she is getting later this week at guitar center. It was nice to have someone like her to talk to though. Most of the friends that I have at school don’t share the same religious views as me and to hear what her spin on some of the stuff that’s been going on was really nice. We talked about what’s going on with Erica and the fact that it seems like I can’t seem to find a girl that’s interested in me, talked more about colleges. I love ya God but some times this waiting for ya thing drives me a little crazy, you know I’ll make it but man it would be so much easier if it was just obvious and right here.

It was a lot of fun, got to hang out with Andrew some more and play with their dog. I missed not having a cat around here but at least slate doesn’t totally hate me for pinning him down while we trimmed his nails. Carissa’s such a sweet girl, I’m really gonna miss her next year. I can tell that she is someone that I won’t forget of. So she better keep in touch with me. Got home and stayed up talking with my brothers and mom for a couple hours and had a good time telling jokes and just hanging out.

Still I’m having a hard time trying to decide what I should really put in this blog. I don’t want my deepest personal feelings and ideas out there for just anyone to read but I want it to be a place where people can check in on me. Probably will turn out being a day to day basis on how I feel about writing something up here, won’t ever slander anyone other then myself though. So sorry if that’s what you were looking for.

Take care and God bless ~paul